Peace on Me...

Dear God,

I really do need your peace now. I pray that you can calm my heart down and stop my anxiety attacks. I really do not like what I am feeling now. I need you here with me for the whole day.

Amber

I guess that must be how Jesus feels on the night before He is going to be crucified. I doubt my burden is even half of HIS and yet the tremendous pressure that I feel now is so unbearable. Now I really understand the BIG BIG burden that Jesus has to go through. It feels so terrible, as if you are captured in a dark room, without any way of escape. The walls seem to be caving you every second. And you feel the extreme pain and loneliness. All you can do is to squat at the corner and wept, remain totally helpless. Even when you try to scream, no voice seems to come out of you. You feel totally dead, lifeless and shiver at every breath you breathe. God, this is so terrible. I keep on asking myself, how did Jesus go through all this? Because Jesus focus on the prize that was set before Him. He endured till the end.

Thats my saviour, who love me and believe in me.....

And for those who do care enough to drop me an sms. Thanks. I love Jesus and I love you all too.
Somehow in the middle of the dark room, a tiny beam of light manage to shine through with all your prayers and smses and it brings hope to me. I know I am not alone. God is with me and so is all of you. I believe I will be able to get out of this soon enough.