Exciting Day!

Today is an exciting busy day! I am absolutely tired but excited at the same time? I am going down for an audition today. Hmm, abit apprehensive in the first place, but afterwards come to think of it, since it is just for fun. Why not? Haha Perhaps I can learn something from it? I must have faith to perform in front of strangers. I was asked to prepare a song and a dance item. Hmm ok that is hard, why did I promise my friend that I will go for it? I am like digging my own grave.

Perhaps singing is still not so bad…but dance!!! Ah….hard hard hard….They asked me to download this 30sec dance music and I have to dance according to it. What kind of music is that? I played at least hundred of times. Ok, just somehow managed to groove in it. Kind of weird doing it but it seems to get fun after some time.

Next must prepare songs to sing. My all time favourite is ‘How do I live?” by Trisha Yearwood, so that is the easiest for me to sing. But….I just cant memorise the lyrics. Got kind of upset so I went to pray for a while and Aloha, think I somehow managed to get it, anyway if I really forget the lyrics during audition, I figured out I just sing a new song to God. Haha. It cant be that bad.

And also lastly I need to play my own simple song that I compose. That is easy! I have been playing the song and singing it for so many times. It is in my DNA!

Ok I think somehow I am prepared. Next is my outfit and hair, hmm, I decided to settle with my usual SUNDAY church service outfit, haha cause that is when I feel more at ease anyway. I still have not fully recover from my long flu and cough. But I know God will heal me! Just pray that later when I sing, I am not going to cough.

So…off to work and an exciting time later on….

For those who have been sending me sweet smses to encourage me, thank you! You all are awesome.


Current Mood:

CGL Class 3

Yesterday was amazing. Now I am kinda addicted to the presence. Worship and lingering in the presence of God is just so breathtaking. A New Anointing….something just happen. The presence was heavy, abit hard to breathe. Head was spinning and everything around me just got slower and slower. It is as if time stops. The funny thing was the room where we worship was so small but yet it seems ages for me to walk from one side to another side when I wanted to lay hands. When I am laying hands at the end of the room, which is like only 3 steps away from where I am sitting, I feel as if xiaoshi was very far from me. The music she played seems to be lost in the background somewhere and I feel as if I am in a vacuum praying for the people. I just cant describe the feeling. Have I felt this way before? Yes Similar but yet NEW. The word ‘New Anointing’ just keeps on appearing in my head, I know it is the prompting of the Holy Spirit. The presence in the room just gets stronger and stronger. It is kind of strange because you seem to walk into a new realm of dimension. Something unfelt before but yet it brings a strange warm feeling into your heart. I believe that is how most or if not all of us felt.

And I was reminded of the story about Smith Wigglesworth. How he had prayer meeting and bit by bit people left the prayer meeting, because the presence was too strong for them to handle. Some people even had to crawl out of the prayer meeting.

Well no one crawl out of the room yesterday. Haha but I really should jolly well pray for that to happen. But the presence is just so strong, that it left all of us, abit STONE afterwards. We could not explain the visitation from God yesterday night. But yet we all know that God is definitely in the room because it was so holy. You just cannot sin in that presence. Hmm, I really want to experience it again. It is just so different and simply addictive.

If what we experience yesterday is a part of the new anointing and the new works God is going to do, like what He told me before, then I think I am really looking forward to it. I cannot describe what I feel in my Spirit. A new faith arising in my Spirit.

And after the whole meeting, I looked at xiaoshi. She knows what I meant and nodded in agreement. And I said, “God has really prepared a new anointing for the new generation.”

Ah…..I want more……

Thank you!

To: All who care,

Thank you so much for all your love and smses. Life really makes it worthwhile to have all of you by my side. I am just so blessed. :) Thank you! So many people I want to thank..but I guess the one that help me hold 5 balloons before, you definitely the first on the list...

Have a great day and will be updating soon....

Love,
Amber

Product of Debby

Mei Nu Lai Le?? haha

Peace on Me...

Dear God,

I really do need your peace now. I pray that you can calm my heart down and stop my anxiety attacks. I really do not like what I am feeling now. I need you here with me for the whole day.

Amber

I guess that must be how Jesus feels on the night before He is going to be crucified. I doubt my burden is even half of HIS and yet the tremendous pressure that I feel now is so unbearable. Now I really understand the BIG BIG burden that Jesus has to go through. It feels so terrible, as if you are captured in a dark room, without any way of escape. The walls seem to be caving you every second. And you feel the extreme pain and loneliness. All you can do is to squat at the corner and wept, remain totally helpless. Even when you try to scream, no voice seems to come out of you. You feel totally dead, lifeless and shiver at every breath you breathe. God, this is so terrible. I keep on asking myself, how did Jesus go through all this? Because Jesus focus on the prize that was set before Him. He endured till the end.

Thats my saviour, who love me and believe in me.....

And for those who do care enough to drop me an sms. Thanks. I love Jesus and I love you all too.
Somehow in the middle of the dark room, a tiny beam of light manage to shine through with all your prayers and smses and it brings hope to me. I know I am not alone. God is with me and so is all of you. I believe I will be able to get out of this soon enough.

SUN NEW Song....

Love Sun...you are so cool...when I feel down, I always remember you. How you overcome all the difficulties and trust in God. I want to be like you! A strong mighty woman warrior for God! :)

Bare it out with God...

My heart seems heavy tonight. Unexplainable mixed emotions.
Have you ever feel like you are at a cross between life and death?
Or I should say a cross between extreme happiness and sadness? That’s how I feel.
Who can understand? The heart of someone who feels extremely bad for all the wrong things that she has done and yet live in extreme grace of the living GOD? Or am I just truly confused?

Someone say there is a ‘heart song’ in all of us. What heart song do I have in me tonight?

I do not know. At the crossroad of extreme ends of emotions, what am I supposed to write tonight? I do not wish to write about the extreme happiness in me, neither do I wish to write about the extreme sadness I have. And I realized that when I ruled both emotions out, I have none left to write, and this seems a rather silly entry.

Am: God, I am feeling confused
God: Why?
Am: Because I am sad but I just cant cry, I am happy but I cant smile.
God: Who say u cant cry? And who say u cant smile?
Am: ……No one……
God: I give you tears for a purpose, you can cry, but once you finish crying tonight, pick yourself up and rejoice at what I have prepare for you.
Am: with tears flowing…God I want to pick myself up again. I want to be more positive and rejoice at what you have placed in front of me. There is still a dream in me yet to be fulfilled. Can I fulfill that?
God: Yes. If you trust in me.
Am: I do and always will because you never lie to me. Today was a good day. The drama was good. The people are really great…
God: I think today is a great day as well. Everyday is a good day. Pick yourself up Amber and run this race together with me. I will be at the end waiting for you. One day you will see me face to face in heaven. But from now till then, Holy Spirit will stay by your side to guide you to run this race. This might be a very long run for you, but soon enough, you will find yourself running the last few laps and eventually it will end. But from now till the end of the race, there are certain things you have to do. I need you to focus and finish what I need you to do quickly. Disciple the new generation well. They will do far greater works and you shall see the miracles that they will perform. Do not be weary for in due season you will reap not thirty fold but a hundred fold.
Am: God thank you. I feel much better now. I will do what you want me to do. See ya soon.

Heart Song for Tonight

If I could ever live my life one more time, I would pray that I would have a chance to know you earlier. There are many things I will not have done it in the past, if only I knew that there is a God who love and believe in me. Some lessons in life seem too high a price to pay, but without paying such a high price, how do I learn?

Love Amber

When God answers prayer...

YEAH! Today I hit my target 18 for the number of particpants for the upcoming 21st April 5-theme leadership model by Dr Roger Gill. Coolz...how exciting can ones' life be when you live in the grace of God?

Walking with Jesus is fun and exciting. It is never boring. Everyday when you walk with God, you will learn new things.

There are days when you will be sad,

but when God is with you,

You just dont know how to look......haha

but if you just open your eyes,

God is bigger than your every circumstances, your every trial and tribulations. SMILE!

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Amazing! Are you inspired W320?

Two Eight Year Old Kids Bringing Revival!

If everyone of us can have faith and believe in God like the two eight year olds, it wont be too long for the whole of Singapore to be saved! God is real.

Memories...

Was chatting to a Primary School Friend....haha and I realised that it has been ages since I saw them.... Where Are You All?? :) (knock knock)

Sometimes I really do get so busy in my life.
Someone ask me,"Will I ever regret what I am doing now? Will I ever get tired?"

And I replied, "No." If I can choose to live my life once again, I will still choose this path.

"I will walk this walk with you..."

But I do miss the funny times in the past. Memories seem to be fading, but the emotion that came along with the memories is still strong. I do miss Miss Haslindah and alot more....

Some Thoughts for the day....

Without conflict, there are no heroes. The hero and coward look alike until the battle begins. Then and only then, in the face of the challenge, is each one's true character manifested.

Respect.(Girls Rule!)

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