Photos.....

Wah...today wanted to post many photos...but aiyah forget to bring cable out...so sad...want to cry already..but suddenly remember xiaoshi gave me alot of photos that day...yeah..can post some for you all to see...love those photos....fond memories...enjoy!!


(XS & Tim at airport i think...) Jan birthday celebrations......(Tim still around)


<---------Real FOUR beauties.....

Some brainless fun game we play....no worries not POW....they all look like they enjoying themselves....haha....
Hmm....thats all......have so much fun the last few days...as I promised, will really post he crankiest and funniest photo up by tmr....then all of you can laugh at yourself...

Preparing for my new JOB

haha...today my colleague michelle took pictures for me... :) Because I told her I need to prepare for my new Job, i need to have a picture...but still..I think the picture not very nice...haha but anyway take a look...This was taken when I am not prepared....She sabo me....

Yeah the first picture....but we figured out not very formal..somemore I never put on make up..think i look dead....except for the smile...

Ok..decide to loook for some make up to put.....but I really lazy..... so just put bare minimum....

Ok I know I didnt smile in this....I look so dead

Haha....finally managed to have a mini grin....wait one last one

Finally..I used this for my resume...still not very satisfied..maybe tmr I should be more hardworking and put on some make-up..haha

Food poisioning!!!

Ah.....yesterday stomach pain....sob sob...vomitted 3 times in the night...till no more left to vomit. I think it should be food poisoning. :( And all because I ate the Spaghetti from pasta mania...regret...although it was really nice...even just thinking about it already makes me drool...what a high price to pay...today almost couldnt make it for work...but thank God, somehow I just find strength to come office. Right now even as I begin to type this, my stomach still painful. As long as I dont move, I wont feel the pain but the moment I walk around the pain will be obvious. Really pray for total healing!!
God....let me be healed in Jesus name. I already come to work by faith!

Awating for miracle....

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this is still one of my favourite photos!

Alone in office.....

Haha...everybody left office with things to do and I am alone in office now. :) so thats why I am blogging. Not really free though..but I figured out humans got to take a break or two. Yesterday went to find Chihpeng and Sarah together with wilma. Chih Peng so hardworking loh..haha I wonder he got act in front of me anot? One min he was reading chinese essay, next min he was reading literature book. WOW chihpeng..must also read the word of God hor...haha but anyway it was nice meeting him for a chat. Chih Peng is one of the bravest person I know. But thats good! Dare to believe, dare to dream. I think thats what God loves to see in us too!

Visiting Sarah was fun too. haha should have brought a swimming costume. I dont know why everytime I see condo, I just feel like swimming. SO tempted. :) Next time must go swimming with Sarah. Haha and then she can wear BIKINI!! All the guys, stop drooling...Her bikini can float one. Like winter clothes. haha. If you want to know the joke, you can ask her. Haiz..why didnt I take picures...regret... :P love you all....you guys are simply awesome! Sarah - Next time we really must go swimming ok...but dont laugh at me..

Tried....but happy

Today so busy...finally spare some time to write my entry. Having headache now. Ah..right after a healing service. haha devil, I bind you in Jesus name! So many things to do today...like never ending....maybe thats why I got headache. :) but still high in spirits. Miss Benny Hinn meeting alot. How I wish every weekend is as powerful. Actually got a vision on Sat night meeting. It was beautiful. Before the whole turn of the anointing, I saw the train of God's robe slowly fill the entire stadium..It was beautiful. I love it. At first I got a shock, I thought I was dreaming but I remember there is a verse that says God presence is like a robe filling the whole place especially when the people worshipped. Ah...the presence of God was so strong that I cant help but to kneel down. My knees were shaking and I was crying uncontrollably. Really miss the presence of God. How did I ever survive without God? haha that was real hard life. A touch from God is really all worth it. I look at the chinese people on stage, they really so hungry for God. Ah..How i wish I can have that kind of hunger...if I have, I think I will have revival in my life! Soemtimes it is not God not wanting to show up, but how hungry are you? A person that has not eaten for 5 days will definitely be more hungry than a person who has not eaten for 2 days. I want that hunger! Ok..this whole week, i really want to have more revelation on HUNGER! God speak to me even as I begin to read your word...

Benny Hinn Meeting Day 1

Yoz....so excited! Day 1 of benny hinn meeting already so anointed and powerful! praise was good, worship was good, except i really cannot follow much of what is being sung. Anyway the best part is i can sing in tongues. haha..so not too difficult. It was wonderful just to stand there and worship God. The word that Pst.Benny preach was so simple and powerful. Its like reading salvation in those Kid's bible. His english was easy to understand and revelations simple yet powerful. Can't wait for tonight. I believe the meeting will move on from faith to faith, glory to glory. Even though it was like 3hr plus, but it was so worth it, especially to see the miracles at the end. Thats what the people are coming to Benny Hinn meeting for; to get healing. Like the old days of the bible where you can see the lame walk, the deaf hear. Sometimes i wonder, what kind of life were they living prior to their healing? it must be a sad one, where they lost hope and never thought anything great can happen. but yesterday night must have been very special to them. That should be what following God is all about, bringing healing to the people, changing lives. I remember the verse:
LUKE 4:18 -19
"The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor."

And i just feel God challenging me to really make this 2 verses the core of my christian walk. I must preach, I must set the captive free, I must proclaim freedom and I must heal the sick! because all these things will show people that God is real! Easy to say...but its the doing part that many people fail. I am learning...I might have failed many times, but KEEP MOVING FORWARD! Everytime when I pray for healing, nothing might have happen, but i am moving towards success. Praise God for that!

Just want to end with a prayer...

God I want to lift up myself and w320 into your hands, begin to come and anoint me to preach the gospel, every knee shall bow and every tongue will confess you as the lord. I pray that let uus not just be a happy family cg, but let every member step out in faith int otheir destiny, into what God has called them to do. Every one will heal the sick and perform deliverance. I pray that the people will focus on you more and less of what is in the world. They will elarn to put your kingdom first and be faithful. I pray all this in jesus name, AMEN!

Meet the Robinson :)

Yesterday went to watch this show with eugene and zihui!! hmm quite a nice show..i like the moving forward part. Very encouraging and inspiring. its like no matter how many times the character failed, but yet every failure is being celebrated. Not because of the failing part, but celebrated because of the effort and the fact that every failure is a step closer to success. :) Isnt that like God? haha how He encourages us when we fail. Guess this is what pastor kong say by common grace. That God use things of the world to teach us about His kingdom. So really want to encourage all those who fail in life, Praise the LORD! because EVERY FAILURE IS A STEP CLOSER TO SUCCESS.

Benny Hinn is coming!

Yoz...haha :) just came back from lunch..so tired...what a day....havent been doing much today. waiting for benny hinn meeting. so excited. Still remember last 2 years when he came. The presence of God was so strong. Hmm wonder what will happen this year? I really hope God will come and touch me once again. I dont want just a brief encounter, but a powerful one. Bible says those who humble themselves will find God. So God!!! I really need you. Without you in my life, I really can do nothing. Cant wait to post what will happen later. I believe there will be tremendous signs and wonders and I know God will touch the heart of the people there. Amen!

Revive!!!

Finally, after very long, I decide to revive my blog. Guess if i want revival, I better start reviving myself first...haha need some action. I added a tag board like everybody else but hor I didnt really tell people about my blog yet...so how? haha I figued out I can try to play some characters in my tag board and have a question and answer game with myself. kinda dumb though. Anyway I guess I will used that as a last resort if i am really sianz. I really hope I can be committed to my blog. haha. So I better pray for commitment.

Just cut my hair on tuesday, wanted to cut earlier, but cant because I get sabo. They 'forced' me to eat dinner and miss the chance to cut hair. But couldnt care less, on tuesday, I secretly reach hair salon then I sms them to let them know. haha. in case they have some evil plans. Well didnt really cut alot, just do treatment and trim my fringe. Guess how much it cost??? I couldnt believe it when I pay my bills. $180!! This is daylight robbery. They explained by saying that they have added much protein and vitamins to my scalp, so I guess I just have to pay for it. Ah God, bless my bank account!
Is my new haircut nice?->

But because of the many layers, my hair will "qiao" so have to tie up....hmm.....I bet if I go cg, no one will know I cut my hair, everybody will just laugh at my $180. And I can hear hanyi voice saying, "Never mind lah, you earning $2000." Dont they know $2000 is very little? haha

To Germaine...A letter from my heart..

Hi ger,

So long never talk to you already. Hope you are still doing fine! Yesterday was really happy to see you. Though you didn’t talk to me much. You keep on playing the laptop…but still I am glad I can see you! Haha you didn’t change much. I mean appearance wise. Still so cute and pretty.

How’s everything in your life? You know sometimes I really want to know also don’t know who to ask, because you don’t want to talk to me also. But still everyday I am missing you. Miss all the good times, the times when you hug me, the times when you encourage me…J

Are you unhappy with cell group? I am sorry if you feel they have offended you. But Cell group is cell group mah. Everyone is not perfect, there will be times when you offended people and you hope they can forgive you as well. I know sometimes many things going on behind, haha so if you angry then you must get angry with me. You know why? Because I am the one who never disciple the cell group properly. If I cause you to be unhappy or feel that I don’t love you, I am sorry for that. J

I know right now you very disheartened about church. And you don’t even want to come. Well I don’t like to force people also, but it is also true that from the bottom of my heart, I hope to see you coming back. As I mentioned, there is always a place for you in my heart.

These past few months, are you really happy? What do you do now when you have troubles? All these things everyday I keep on asking myself. I hope to be there for you! So don’t avoid me k?

Maybe you need some time to prove my love for you but I am willing to take the challenge. All of us in Cg miss you a lot. But I know the young ones they don’t dare to talk to you cause they scared you not happy with them. Not because they cant be bothered. Every time when we fellowship, I still hear them mentioning about you. Ger, you really come and make a difference into many people lives in cg.

Really hope to see you come for this Easter. I wont force you. But you decide k? And somemore torance acting his first drama. So it will be good if you can support him.

Thanks for being my friend and my dear tortoise.

Love,
Amber

To Judith...A letter from my heart

Hi Judith,

Hmm…waited whole night but still no sms. Well, but I believe you read and watch the video. Hope you like all these memories. Personally I like it a lot. J

You never share with me on how you feel, so I also don’t know what to say, I guess I can only guess. Haha Does that sound like a wrong sentence? Let’s see how will Holy Spirit guide me then…

Firstly, everything there is really from my heart. Sometimes I might be very angry with you…J but that’s because I care. What’s the real reason you decide not to come at that time? To be honest I really don’t know. Is it because of me? I really treasure this friendship with you and don’t want to lose you as a sister in Christ or as my beloved daughter.

Or do you fear coming back to CG? That everything will be funny? Personally I feel don’t let this bother you k? I mean things about cell group, we can talk about it when you feel more comfortable. I don’t want you to feel pressurize about coming back to cell group and then you have to do this do that and commit yourself so fully. Commitment takes time and to be honest I also not expecting you to come back and become wah, power Judith. But I just hope to see you at least having a relationship back with God. Where you can trust Him and believe in Him. This one year to live a life like that are you happy? All of us are created by God and if we never have God in our life, there will always be a missing part. We will not feel really complete. I have been away from God before and I understand how it feels. When I am away from God, even sometimes when I pray, I feel like God will not even hear. Then I am left alone with all my hurts, pain and disappointment. Well who do I blame? I make that choice too. But I always remember this, what Jesus want is just to stay with you and be with you. Then I will remember the song, come to the father, thou your gifts is small…Jesus didn’t come for people who feel they have a chance. Jesus comes for you and me, people who are imperfect. I am not asking you to be perfect but I am just asking do you want to give God a chance in your life again? This time when you come back to God, what will happen, nobody knows for sure, but leave all these things in God’s hand. Do things slowly bit by bit at one time.

Don’t let fear crept into you. I always have this fear of failure in me, I am afraid that if I fail, then how? So paiseh and malu…but the thing is if I never try how will I know. When you try things with God, there is always a possibility that things might happen. And things that happen are things for good! In life we all make mistakes, but how do I get through all these is when I told myself this, “I am not going to punish myself for the mistakes I have done, I am going to make remedy. This is the ONE life I have and I don’t want to live a life in regret, that when I turn back and look at my life, I end up shaking my head in disappointment. I want to be someone when I turn back and look at my life, I can proudly give a smile and say yes that’s me, I might have failed many times, done really wrong things, but I have learnt to rectify it, move on and do what is right in my life again!” That’s the kind of person I am trying to be everyday.

Judith what about you? Are you going to be that kind of person? I can fall down many times, but each time I learn and move on. God is still there waiting for you. Yes nearly a year has passed since you make that decision, but are you going to let another year pass you by? Or are you going to say this time round, let me try again. Let me try to build back my relationship with God. Remember God and me will never expect you to be like the old Judith again. All we hope is that you begin from now to make that decision to live your life right!

I believe this time round when you take that step of faith, and go for Easter services; you will begin to enjoy yourself. Church is fun and should never be something unhappy. Yes the people there do irritate us at times, but this is all about you and God. What God has given you, the gifts and talents, will always be there. He will not take them away.

I really hope to see you for this Easter. Don’t let another year pass by, Now…is the time! Make an effort to go for Easter and enjoy yourself. No pressure. Even if you say No, there is nothing God and me can do. But our love for you will always remain. To grow up with you is what I really want. I have already miss a chance to grow up together with you for a year. But I don’t want to make that same mistake again. I want to grow up together in Christ with you!

Love,
Amber